Help me continue throwing Javelin at the ELITE level....

Please help me gain recognition for my abilities and dedication to the sport of throwing. I am fairly new to throwing javelin but have gained a lot in the process. I have what it takes to become a great javelin thrower just need help getting to the next level. The ELITE level of throwing is something I am aiming for and would love it if you could help by contributing to my goal. Also, please help me by spreading the word on all of your social networks. Just click the link below :)

Thank You,

Ashley



http://www.indiegogo.com/HelpTrainAJavThrower?c=home&a=1084675

The Goal! Qualify 2012 Olympic Team Trials

Qualifying Standards

Qualifying window:

Men's and Women's Marathon - January 1, 2011 - January 14, 2012. Marathon standards must be met on an IAAF approved course

Men's 50km Race Walk - January 1, 2011 - June 17, 2012. Race Walk standards must be met on an IAAF approved course

10,000m and Combined Events - January 1, 2011 - July 1, 2012 or the end of the athlete's individual event at the 2012 Olympic Team Trials - Track & Field, whichever comes first

All Other Individual Track & Field Events - May 1, 2011 - July 1, 2012 or the end of the athlete's individual event at the 2012 Olympic Team Trials - Track & Field, whichever comes first

Men

	"A"	"B"
100m	10.18	10.24
200m	20.55	20.65
400m	45.25	45.70
800m	1:45.60	1:46.30
1500m	3:35.50	3:38.00
5000m	13:20.00	13:27.00
10,000m	27:45.00	28:05.00
Marathon	2:15:00	2:18:00
3000m Steeplechase	8:23.10	8:32.00
110m Hurdles	13.52	13.60
400m Hurdles	49.50	49.80
High Jump	2.31 m	2.28 m
Pole Vault	5.72 m	5.60 m
Long Jump	8.20 m	8.10 m
Triple Jump	17.20 m	16.85 m
Shot Put	20.50 m	20.00 m
Discus Throw	65.00 m	63.00 m
Hammer Throw	78.00 m	74.00 m
Javelin Throw	82.00 m	79.50 m
Decathlon	8,200 pts.	7,950 pts.
20 km Race Walk	1:22:30	1:24:30
50 km Race Walk	3:59:00	4:09:00
4x100m	Top 16 teams
4x400m	Top 16 teams

Women

	"A"	"B"
100m	11.29	11.38
200m	23.10	23.30
400m	51.50	52.30
800m	1:59.90	2:01.30
1500m	4:06.00	4:08.90
5000m	15:15.00	15:25.00
10,000m	31:45.00	32:10.00
Marathon	2:37:00	2:43:00
3000m Steeplechase	9:43.00	9:48.00
100m Hurdles	12.96	13.15
400m Hurdles	55.40	56.55
High Jump	1.95 m	1.92 m
Pole Vault	4.50 m	4.40 m
Long Jump	6.75 m	6.65 m
Triple Jump	14.30 m	14.10 m
Shot Put	18.35 m	17.30 m
Discus Throw	62.00 m	59.50 m
Hammer Throw	71.50 m	69.00 m
Javelin Throw	61.50 m	59.00 m
Heptathlon	6,150 pts.	5,950 pts.
20 km Race Walk	1:33:30	1:38:00
4x100m	Top 16 teams
4x400m	Top 16 teams

Life

We've all heard the saying "communication is key". I thought about this a dozen times and have still become frustrated with it. Yes, communication is key, but when you have never had to communicate with another person about your problems or feelings it can be difficult. Especially, when the one you love is having difficulty picking up on certain cues. I must admit I am still disturbed by the apology that was given for the incident, but what can I say? I find it common that people will only report on what seems relevant to them, in order to cover up the truth. Revealing only half the truth. If you find it difficult to communicate the truth, why commit yourself to something or someone? We all have doubts about things, but what difference will it make if we do not confront these issues?

Over the last few days, there has been a lot going on with relationships and friendships. I find it more common now, to break or end association due to unresolved issues.  I feel like something is missing and in order to locate it I need you to be committed to improving “us”.  Secrets are always revealed in the end!

Stuck

A couple of weeks back, I set a new Javelin Pr and won the meet with a throw of 161'3".  For those of you who were there, I didn't brag nor did I show off the new mark. I simply smiled because I was excited about it. However, I've been dealing with some issues lately that have seemed to get me a little frustrated. Before my new pr, I was throwing consistently around 146' now that I have the new pr I guess I'm expecting that same kind of consistency. I haven't really had it ever since, which caused me to over-think that same day. I found myself questioning if the official had messed up the marks, or if sleep deprived body was throwing on pure adrenaline and or the last bit of energy left in my body. I tried not to think about it too much, but ever since the day, I have found it harder to match this great performance. I guess I'm looking for my next big throw. Maybe I just need to be a little more patient about it. Hopefully it will come soon! I'm thinking BIG WEST SOON.....

Happy Birthday to very special person in my life. MY MOTHER :D

Your birthday means a lot to me.

Another year passes as I reflect back on my childhood and there is no greater way I'd rather spend without you. 

A single parent mother who has raised wonderful achieving children.

How did you find the energy to do all the things you did? 

Cooking, cleaning, teaching, and inspiring me to be a greater version of yourself. 

Such an extraordinary mother raising such an extraordinary child. 

I am so blessed to have a mother as wonderful as you.

You have made such an impact on the person I have become and I thank you dearly for that. 

An incredibly smart and talented mother, strong, unselfish caring and giving,

you have molded a loving daughter of just that. 

I owe everything I have to you. My life, talents, and accomplishments could never have meant so much to me if it weren't for you enriching my life.

Your physical capabilities have encouraged me to become a bigger and better person.

Your dedication to make a way for your children is inspiring and no one will better understand it then your very own. 

I contemplate on my childhood, and how you made all things possible on your own.

Breaking your back to provide for us.

I learned about love from you, watching your caring ways become embedded in myself.

Responsibility, leadership, and dedication all from you. 

An inspirational mother granted good health and beauty.

You made sacrifices and for that I respect and honor you.

I thank you for everything and hope today you will let go of all the negative things in your life and take the time out to live YOUR LIFE. 

For today we celebrate the best thing in my life, having you as my wonderful mother.

I LOVE YOU MOM!

What does it mean?

When words cannot express just how deeply one feel about life? I cannot explain how I feel about my life right now. I am soo caught up in my thoughts that it has become a problem. Ashley vs. Ashley. A mere image of myself slowly killing my psyche. Which would probably explain the frequent hair-loss, headaches, and the sickness I've had for some time now. As I smile in the face of many asking how I am doing, I find it irrelevant to express just how distressed I am. Am I afraid of something lesser than anything worth stressing over? Will I ever overcome this complication that seems to obstruct my progression with life? Sometimes I feel out of place with myself. Like I am losing my mind and the only way to fix it is to let go of everything. It is possible that I am taking on too much at once. I have never had to rely on someone in the past and don't plan on it. At times I feel like crying, sometimes I actually do. Not that I can help it, I just do. An emotional wreck one might suggest, but maybe there is something wrong with me mentally? I noticed that I have become more and more absent minded, and repetitive. I forget conversations that I've had with people. I am jittery at times, and sometimes I get very emotional when thinking about simple things. Have I put too much stress on my body that I have become unstable? Soo many questions I have yet no answers. Telling me is one thing but showing me is another.

I AM LOST ......

Friendship

I miss our friendship. This feeling I've had for a while now. I miss how things used to be.
The good times. Two rebels in a crazy o' Riverside. Road trip buddies now turned wordless sharing  common space but seldom interact with one another. This loss of communication has led to our friendship deteriorating. Sometimes I find myself questioning how things would have been if my current situation hadn't changed. Would we be as close as we once were? Is my status the problem to our friendship? I wish I could understand. Please help me understand, so we could go back to how we used to be. We went from socializing about life and problems to hardly ever talking about anything. A close friendship we thought would continue to grow has in fact stopped. Constantly reminiscing on how things were I find myself wondering how I can change the situation. Did we try hard enough to mend our broken friendship?

Fixedly staring at thin air, wondering how we went from expressing our feelings to each other to having  vent elsewhere. How did it get like this? Hidden in the activities we engage in, I am constantly pondering what is going on in your life. I feel like you are hesitant about expressing your feelings with me. I am still the same person I used to be. What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was hanging out with you? I'm falling apart trying to make sense of what little bit remains. All I ask is for a second chance. Can we start again to strengthen our broken friendship?

That's all I ask of you.