From time-to-time I find myself lost within two worlds. In the first, I am caught making decisions that are to complex in my making. In the next, I am caught trying to please everyone. At an early age I have always been a great decision maker, but over the years I have found that my decisions have lacked trust within myself. I have developed an over-thinking approach to things. I am constantly thinking about the effects rather than the positive aspects within them. My lack of faith in my decision making has set plenty of burdens on my shoulder. Kind-hearted and willing to please those who I love I have created a weight that is too heavy for me to lift. I am steadily kicking myself into the ground when my expectations are not met. This approach to things has affected my mind, body, and spirit. I am not the person I used to be. What happened to the woman who instead of bashing herself down, work harder to make sure things go accordingly? Trying to satisfy those around me I am faced with unusual emotions, which have caused me to plaster my feelings and thoughts. Sometime down the road I am unleashing these feelings which have created a burden for me.
While I cannot change the past I can work toward strengthening my future. I must overcome this over-thinking process and focus on the present. These words are very familiar to me. I have whispered the saying over-and-over to myself, but have continuously found no sense of comfort from them. Maybe the source is not my over-thinking but in fact my expectations I have placed upon myself? Placing success as a top priority? “I don’t know what the key to success is, but the key to failure is trying to please everyone” Maybe my next move should be to challenge myself mentally, and physically in which I think the opposite?
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