Moving on

Family forever. At times I've questioned the sanity of our relationship. I must admit there are very few sane individuals who have seen the route many misguided members continue to follow. Those who took note of these blunders such as gambling, alcohol usage, and violence made sure to oversee these interferences. I must admit it wasn't always like this. When times got hard things got a little colder. Animosity amongst these individuals had tension growing within each other. One thing I found myself questioning was the fact that I never really payed any attention to those who loved gossiping about so called family members. I would say there are very few of us that have stepped out of the realm in which other family members have been placed into. When times got hard the family separated like wild goose. What happened to family first no matter the situation? As i continued to grow older, wiser, and more responsible for my future I realized that this so called family had a problem. Most would say that every family has their moments... problems etc. However truth is it wasn't always like this. Family reunions brought us together to share stories moments we'd cherish forever but hit by a unsound mind the family slowly disintegrated. The strong souls who kept the family together for years slowly died off one by one leaving a family full of uninspired souls to explore the forbidden paths once conversed. A broken family slowly alienated themselves from others. Soon all they had to talk about was the fact that my mother had made a bad decision that would put our immediate family in a hole which carried over to the present. From then on I became distant and focused on trying to dig us out but shortly realized you cannot help those who won't attempt to help themselves. In the meantime I put my intentions of building what we once had into focusing on myself because how can you help others when you need help yourself? In time you only become so stressed out that in the end you end up hurting and depressed. Life goes on and I take pride in what I have done and look forward to eventually assisting my family but let it be none, I can't do it entirely alone.